My Past Does Not Determine My Future: Part 4. ESTHER


My last entry for this four-part blog series is finally here. It has been a blessing for me to write about these four beautiful women who have changed my life. Who through their stories, I have found healing, hope, courage, and forgiveness. They have taught me to hope in God, no matter how dark my situation may be. They have taught me that there is beauty in each scar, each failure, and each trial. They remind me of how each wound in my life tells of a story of how God came and used my pain to be a blessing to others. My last lady is brave, beautiful, and wise. Her story has soo much to learn from that it can not be written in just one entry; therefore, there will be a part 2 coming soon! I pray in Jesus’ name that you are beyond blessed and may always feel as loved as you indeed are by the Lord. May God always bless you!

Capturing thy King’s Heart

Proverbs 31:29-3129 

“Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Little Esther, also known as Hadassah, did not realize just how vital her birth would be to an entire race of people. Out of all the little girls born around the same time as her, she would be the one chosen by God to save His people. Esther was part of a multitude of Jews who were living in exile in Persia. At a very early age, she would experience tragedy in her life. The bible lets us know that she did not have parents, they had died, and her cousin Mordecai had taken her under his care. Esther was an orphan and came from a humble beginning. She had undergone a lot of turmoil in her life. Esther came from a broken family; it was just her and her cousin. Though she was blessed enough to have a cousin like Mordecai to care for her, how hard must it have been for her to grow up without the hugs of her dear mother? Or hear the sweet tender words of her father? At some point in her life, she must have felt lonely without her parent’s love.

During the time, she was blossoming into a young woman, the King of Persia had divorced, under the advice of his group of counsellors, his wife, Queen Vashti. The former queen had refused his commandment to make an appearance at a banquet he was having with all his royal friends. I feel for Queen Vashti; it must have been very uncomfortable to appear in front of all of these men who were drunk and to be displayed like a trophy. Nevertheless, her reign was over, and King Ahasuerus was looking for a new queen.

King Ahasuerus was looking for his new queen. He sent out a commandment that all the beautiful virgins living in his kingdom are to be gathered into his palace and placed under the care of his eunuch Hegai. The women’s guardian was to start the beauty preparations for all the ladies. Along the women that were taken was our beautiful Esther that was advised not to reveal she was Jewish. Even if Esther did not want to go, she had to, or she could be put to death for defying a commandment from the King. She was taken away from her only family, her cousin Mordecai and the life she knew to start a new life. This new life would require her to endure a year-long beauty preparation ritual.

Esther, though away from her old life, made the best out of her new one. She found favour in the eyes of Hegai, who was in charge of all the women being prepared to meet the King. She became his favourite and provided her with exceptional food and exclusive beauty treatments. He even gave Esther seven maids to take care of her and moved all of them to a better place to live. Despite how beautiful she was, Esther must have been a kind and respectful young lady to obtain such favour from everyone she encountered. There was something special about her, and it was God’s favour over her. Though God is never mentioned in her story, indeed, we can see His divine plan to save His people through Esther’s obedience and by placing Mordecai in her life to guide her.

Before any of the young ladies could meet the King they spent twelve months being soaked in oil of myrrh, putting on perfumes and cosmetics. After their preparation, they were allowed to take anything they wanted with them from the harem to meet the King. In this year, Esther had grown close to the King’s eunuch Hegai and was wise to ask him what pleased the King. Since he was a trusted employee of the King, as we can see, he was the one taking care of the King’s harem; he must have known what the King Ahasuerus liked. When it was Esther’s turn to meet the King, she only took what Hegai the King’s eunuch suggested her to take.

Finally, after a year passes, it is Esther’s turn to meet the King. In all her beauty, humbleness, and obedience, she presents herself, bringing along with her only what Hegai suggested her to take to give to the King. Among all the beautiful women, it was Esther who captured the heart of the King. He loved her more than any of those other beautiful women. There was something extra special about Esther, and that was not her beauty; she had the presence of the Lord, she had a humble heart, and she had the seal of God over her. It was not the King who chose Esther, but it was God who had chosen her from the very beginning to be His little queen that would go on to save His chosen people. It was God who decided little Hadassah to be the King’s next queen. It was all God revealing in front of Esther His plans for her life.

I can only imagine the moment the King chose Esther to be crowned his queen how she must have felt. In over a year soo many things had changed for her. Her past did not matter to the King; he was in love with her. It did not matter to him that she was an orphan raised by her cousin, or that she was not a wealthy girl. She did not need to meet the standards of the society, the only thing she had to do was be Esther, and Esther was a girl with the seal of God.

This part of Esther’s story made me ask myself, how should I present myself to God, my King, to notice me? The bible tells me in Psalm 51:16-17 (KJV) “For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.” I learn from this that the only thing I need to bring to my King to catch His attention and for Him to choose me is my repented heart. Esther also teaches me to ask and find out what pleases the Lord. She teaches me to be selfless. Many times when I come into the presence of God, I only come to ask God for my petitions and forget to bring a gift to Him. Esther made me ask, what pleases the Lord? Well, He loves our praise and worship; He loves to be exalted just like any King would and has in the past. Therefore, may our voice never cease to worship Him, may we never be quiet in His presence, but always bring a gift to give Him, for He deserves soo much more!

It never matters to God or bothers Him of our past or upbringing. Once He seals us, we are His. He will use who He chooses to use. He calls us to serve Him. To know this is beyond humbling to me, because at the end of the day, I am not deserving of His grace and seal. My life had to be a curse of alcoholism, abuse, witchcraft, and soo much more darkness, but God said: “I CHOOSE YOU.” That’s when the chains broke; that is when the curse ended when God on the cross said, “It is done” (John 19:30). All I needed to do for the King to notice me was go on my knees and humble myself in His presence for Him to crown me to be His queen. There was no need for anything else, and it is just that simple. Pastor John Macarthur said something that impacted me; he said, “Christianity is the only religion where you are saved not by works, but by grace.” This statement is very moving to me because I know that I am saved by grace, by mercy, by LOVE, and not by anything I could ever achieve or how good I am. At the end of the day, God loves me because I am His child, and it does not matter to Him where I come from, what my past was, or how broken I may be. All God needs is a willing and humble heart to enter. From there, just like He used Esther, He will use our life for the salvation of many!

Queen Esther caught the heart of the King, but just not of any King; she captured the heart of God from when she was a little girl. She went on to be the vessel God would use to save an entire race. Our beautiful little Hadassah will never be known as anything else but as QUEEN ESTHER. Her life marked her, but she also marked life. She marked the lives of thousands of people that were going to be put to death. She was given a choice to speak or to stay silent. She made a choice not to perish, not to allow her father’s house to perish. She chose to be brave for all the little girls and boys who had lost their parents as well. This moment was her time to make a difference in the lives of many. She chose to be the queen that the Jewish people needed for such a time! To be continued …Part Two “For Such a Time as This”



The king loved Esther more than all the other women, and she obtained grace and favor in his sight more than all the virgins; so he set the royal crown upon her head and made her queen instead of Vashti. Esther 2:17


God bless you greatly,

Glenda Palma Rodas ❤

For the Story of our beautiful queen, you can read it in her very own book in the bible named ESTHER.

1 thought on “My Past Does Not Determine My Future: Part 4. ESTHER”

  1. This is a beautiful article written, God Bless you sister Glenda. I am blessed to read your article, heart touching. God Bless


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